I said I understand. I told myself I get that this is for the best. That there’s never gonna be a happy future for you and I. Best-friends turn lovers don’t always work, just like us. So when we told each other that we’re still going to be there for each other, I understood and fully believed it.
Seeing you happy without me around hurts me.
Feeling the empty space your warm body left beside me and your hand on my hand, your warm eyes on me that now turned cold. I am wrecked.
Sharing worries and end-of-day conversations are never gonna be the same anymore. Lengthy answers turns to six seconds words, I now call it six seconds rule.
Though we agreed it would all be the same, it is not. Knowing that I’ve lost my best-friend that I know I can never replace, I am torn.