Trying to please people so I won’t be ditched.

Then leaving first to avoid being ditched.


Just now, for a second I thought I was in control.

I was not.

after years of living alone, away to college, i don’t think i can go back to live in my parents house after this all ends. i would miss the comfort of being with myself only

When such feeling rises up, all i want and crave for is someone. someone who understands or at least listens and give me soothing calm by just being there with me. when times like this comes, all i want is to have a life like in because this is my first life. the quiet and soothing and content life with someone who naturally has calming effect on you.